So I took Juno to the ortho today. I haven't been worried about it all since we got such good news last month.
But I didn't even need the radiologist to tell me that her ultrasound looked bad. Last month, her hip was very close to being halfway covered by the socket (it should be at about 60% to be normal). This month it was not even close to being halfway covered. Her hip is even a bit worse than it was when we started treating her for DDH back in December.
So the ortho told me our two options at this point are to put her in a Spica cast, which has a 90% chance of success, or try the Pavlik harness again, which is down to a 30% chance of success at this point. He felt strongly that we should give the Pavlik one more shot before doing the much more difficult Spica cast, so Juno is back in the hated Pavlik harness for four weeks.
I mean, I guess there's a chance the Pavlik will work. It just seems like since it didn't work the first time we tried it, it's not going to work this time either, so we might as well skip it and go straight to something that will work. I just want to get it over with.
I hate to think that my happy, smiley, bubbly (literally, she blows bubbles all the time), cooing little baby is going to be miserable and uncomfortable again for who knows how long.
I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.
And what I'm really afraid of is this: I will be stressed and worried all month. Then, next month, the ultrasound will show just enough improvement to make us think that what we are doing is working. So I'll be happy and excited. Then, the next month, the ultrasound will show it getting worse again and I'll have to deal with these emotions all over again. I seriously just want to put her in a cast so I can deal with something real instead of the fear of something.
That's all for now, folks.